UGH!

Dontcha just hate it when people only write about negative stuff. Well add me to the list of things awash in negatives. Not only is my bank account in negative so is my attitude today. Tomorrow is my lovely child's birthday and I don't have a thing planned.
We have no money to do anything. That is zip, zilch, nada! I'm really depressed about it but I've been making up excuses for her so she won't know.
Our wonderful neighbors have offered to have us over for dinner and their kids want to make a little surprise for her. They are making her a cake and bought her a few presents, including some school supplies. I'm sure I should be embarassed at the situation but I'm not. I'm willing to tell anyone how broke we are. You never know who can find a way to help or assist us in finding help. Too many poor folks are ashamed to admit their situation. By hiding it, you can't find support ot help. The one thing I won't do is ask family and friends for a loan. The truth is, I wouldn't be able to pay them back. I still owe money to a wonderful friend from last years birthday party. I have paid her about 75% of the money but I feel like such a slug not being able to pay her everything right now.
My child is so great.She really deserves more than we can offer her right now. I know she knows we can't afford much but to look in her face and see the sadness when we discuss not having a party.......well it breaks my heart.
I'm going to try to call a few folks today and see if maybe we can meet at a local park on Sunday. Sure it will be hot as the dickens and I won't be able to feed them anything, but the kids will still enjoy playing there. I know it is last minute and only a few may be able to come but it is still something.
Anyhow there is my lovely vent for the day.
Thanks for reading.