My Dad is getting better everyday. So far the one little Effexor I took Wed night is holding it's own but I can sense there will be more withdrawal symptoms coming.
One drawback of being so frazzled is being a tad forgetful.
I have some foster kitties that have not all been fixed yet. I have kept the male in another room than the females. I'll bring him in to visit and play when I'm supervising. I brought him in this morning and the phone rang. I had to step outside to get a signal and I LEFT HIM IN WITH THE GIRLS for 20 minutes. I know that at least two of the females were ending a heat cycle. Let's hope to God he didn't get to anyone. I ran around feeling all their necks for saliva. They all looked like he hadn't grabbed them by the neck or back or anything else before mounting.
I am SO not allowed to take bring him in the room anymore until he is fixed. Hopefully next week. I had to cancel last weeks appt.
Okay I'm back off to the hospital. Keep the good thoughts and prayers coming. It's working!
August 22, 2009
August 20, 2009
not really day 5
So after my whole thing with my Dad and my mini meltdown anxiety attack, crap........I rooted around and found one more Effexor. I took it last night after vomiting from stress and feeling so dizzy I thought I'd fall over. I know this too shall pass but I just couldn't take it last night.
Today I met my brother at my Dad's house and we managed to get him to agree to go see a doctor. Glad he wanted to go because after he told me he had not urinated in 3 days, I thought I was going to have to get all bossy on him and that never works well.
So after quite a few hours in non-emegency care he has been admittedt to St. Luke's hospital. I can not tell you how much relief I feel. Yes there is a lot to do with working, and taking care of his house and going to the hospital and getting my daughter ready for her first day of school on Monday but honestly I feel I can breathe again. YES!
I have no idea if my Dad will be getting better but at least he is getting the care he needs.
So we're back to going through withdrawals but I can handle it now. When you are only putting 32.5 mg of Effexor XR in your system every 4 days then 5 days may not be such a stretch eh?
Today I met my brother at my Dad's house and we managed to get him to agree to go see a doctor. Glad he wanted to go because after he told me he had not urinated in 3 days, I thought I was going to have to get all bossy on him and that never works well.
So after quite a few hours in non-emegency care he has been admittedt to St. Luke's hospital. I can not tell you how much relief I feel. Yes there is a lot to do with working, and taking care of his house and going to the hospital and getting my daughter ready for her first day of school on Monday but honestly I feel I can breathe again. YES!
I have no idea if my Dad will be getting better but at least he is getting the care he needs.
So we're back to going through withdrawals but I can handle it now. When you are only putting 32.5 mg of Effexor XR in your system every 4 days then 5 days may not be such a stretch eh?
August 19, 2009
Picked a bad day to.....
Today reminds me of the movie Airplane. I picked a bad day to quit doing(drug of your choice here).
For me, "I picked a bad day to be having withdrawals from my anti-depressants."
Why you ask? And of course, I heard you asking....
Near the end of the evening I got a call from my Dad. He sounds like hell and asked me to bring him a bowl of soup from Luby's. It seems he has been sick for almost a week. My Dad is 86, hates doctors and is as stubborn as a mule. Turns out he has had diarhea for a week and has not been eating much. Yes this can be dangerous I know.
Here is where I wish I had my meds in me:
In 1994 my Mother had a cold, possibly the flu. She was a very healthy 75 year old lady. She had been to the Dr. and it turned out she was getting a urinary tract infection too. So, I went by with her medication so she could stay home and rest.
She was in bed and feeling vey crappy. I made her some soup and as she got up to come to the kitchen, she collapsed. That was it. She died that instant. I did CPR, and it kept her "going" until she died again at the hospital.
So, that being said, Imagine my horror as my Dad called to tell me he would like me to bring him some soup. Now I have to walk into the house where my Mother died, walk down the same hall and bring my ailing father some soup.
It was everything in my power to walk in the door of that house.
I made it through though. My Dad looks bad. He will not go to a Doctor. I told him I would come back in the morning and bring more food.
I wish I could tell you that I think he'll be better a bit tomorrow but I worry that he may not be better at all and may actually be on his last breath.
So, tomorrow I will try to get my self together again and walk into the house without showing my fear, anxiety and great sadness. None of that is very easy when coming off your meds.
DAMN I need some cake.
For me, "I picked a bad day to be having withdrawals from my anti-depressants."
Why you ask? And of course, I heard you asking....
Near the end of the evening I got a call from my Dad. He sounds like hell and asked me to bring him a bowl of soup from Luby's. It seems he has been sick for almost a week. My Dad is 86, hates doctors and is as stubborn as a mule. Turns out he has had diarhea for a week and has not been eating much. Yes this can be dangerous I know.
Here is where I wish I had my meds in me:
In 1994 my Mother had a cold, possibly the flu. She was a very healthy 75 year old lady. She had been to the Dr. and it turned out she was getting a urinary tract infection too. So, I went by with her medication so she could stay home and rest.
She was in bed and feeling vey crappy. I made her some soup and as she got up to come to the kitchen, she collapsed. That was it. She died that instant. I did CPR, and it kept her "going" until she died again at the hospital.
So, that being said, Imagine my horror as my Dad called to tell me he would like me to bring him some soup. Now I have to walk into the house where my Mother died, walk down the same hall and bring my ailing father some soup.
It was everything in my power to walk in the door of that house.
I made it through though. My Dad looks bad. He will not go to a Doctor. I told him I would come back in the morning and bring more food.
I wish I could tell you that I think he'll be better a bit tomorrow but I worry that he may not be better at all and may actually be on his last breath.
So, tomorrow I will try to get my self together again and walk into the house without showing my fear, anxiety and great sadness. None of that is very easy when coming off your meds.
DAMN I need some cake.
4 days and counting
No Alice, you world did not just get all sparkley.....tis another fun effect of the meds leaving your system. No reason not to embrace it though.
Things are going to be different around here
Hi folks! It's been almost 2 years and now I decide to write again?
I may pop on from time to time to throw a weird thing out there or two.
I'm still living the life of a "almost poor enough to get help but nooooot poor enough".
I'm the American dream of slipping through the cracks. Husband has insurance(thank God) but we can't get H and I on it or it will take his entire pay check. I'm barely working but trying to pick up more jobs every day. I have a car now and so does the husband. Neither one has a/c. Can you say HOT AS HELL when it's 102 out and you are stuck in traffic? Hey but at least we have cars right? Both cars are older than the hills and if we were able to to make a car payment PLUS full coverage insurance we could have easily fit the Cash for Clunkers thing. That's another one of those slip through the cracks things. Pretty sure we were not thought about when they dreamed up that little program.
Another little exciting event is this:
I've been taking anti depressants for almost 9 years. When I went on them, I was unemployed as was my husband so I was able to get on the county program. Even as we started making a bit of money, I was able to stay in the program but pay a little.
Once we started doing better financially, my eligibility was dropped like a hot potato. What does this mean? It means that for the last few months I have been having to wean myself off of my anti-depressants. It will take at the very least 4-6 weeks to get back in the system since I do not have a steady job anymore.
So folks, while I go through the weird withdrawals please don't mind the typos and strange utterances from beyond.
Tis only me.
I may pop on from time to time to throw a weird thing out there or two.
I'm still living the life of a "almost poor enough to get help but nooooot poor enough".
I'm the American dream of slipping through the cracks. Husband has insurance(thank God) but we can't get H and I on it or it will take his entire pay check. I'm barely working but trying to pick up more jobs every day. I have a car now and so does the husband. Neither one has a/c. Can you say HOT AS HELL when it's 102 out and you are stuck in traffic? Hey but at least we have cars right? Both cars are older than the hills and if we were able to to make a car payment PLUS full coverage insurance we could have easily fit the Cash for Clunkers thing. That's another one of those slip through the cracks things. Pretty sure we were not thought about when they dreamed up that little program.
Another little exciting event is this:
I've been taking anti depressants for almost 9 years. When I went on them, I was unemployed as was my husband so I was able to get on the county program. Even as we started making a bit of money, I was able to stay in the program but pay a little.
Once we started doing better financially, my eligibility was dropped like a hot potato. What does this mean? It means that for the last few months I have been having to wean myself off of my anti-depressants. It will take at the very least 4-6 weeks to get back in the system since I do not have a steady job anymore.
So folks, while I go through the weird withdrawals please don't mind the typos and strange utterances from beyond.
Tis only me.
December 06, 2007
It Lives
Hiya everyone! I just wanted to let everyone know I am alive! I know it has been a while and the last time I wrote I was all bummed and crap......
Let's see..I have about 5 minutes to write this because I still do not have Internet at home and I have too come to the local library to use the internet
BIG HONKIN HINT...if you want to give me big time prezzie...I could use a laptop with wireless capabilities so I can just hit the hot spots around town to use the thing. Still no phone service at home but I have a cell so iffin you want to reach me..and you know you do....just throw me an e-mail an when I get it, I'll send you my new cell number.
OKAY now an update. Dear husband is still doing well bu tr his meds run almost 400 a month. Hey could be worse.
Daughter has the attitude from hell but she is still the nuttiest kid I know and will still cuddle up with her mom on occasion.
I'm still working and loving my job. Wish I had a damn car though. I'm renting one this week because the last one I was going to buy fell through. Hard to find a $1000 car that has a good transmission and can get at least 20 mpg. I need to have a talk with Dave Ramsey about that "driving a beater" thing.
My husband is still working as well....Is that freaking unbelievable or what! We have both been employed since April!!!
We are catching up slowly but surely on the debt thing. Biggest issue is trying to catch up on the mortgage right now. Other than that we have water, electricity and gas!!!YES!!!!
Oh and another upside since the last time we spoke. My dog's issue is better. I found a dog and kept it in my backyard while trying to find it's owner...well he lives with us now. My dog gets along with him pretty well and they hang outside during the day with no problems! On bad weather days they hang out in the utility room together. It has been a Godsend...uh but the new dog eats like a friggin horse.
Anyhow...I have ideas on keeping this thing current but it will have to be after the holidays. I work like a dog during the holidays but I like it and I get paid.
Damn I'm lucky!
I gotta go the library chases folks like me off around this time.
Drop me a note guys..oh and the little elf that dropped something in my bucket.....I LOVE YOU!!
Let's see..I have about 5 minutes to write this because I still do not have Internet at home and I have too come to the local library to use the internet
BIG HONKIN HINT...if you want to give me big time prezzie...I could use a laptop with wireless capabilities so I can just hit the hot spots around town to use the thing. Still no phone service at home but I have a cell so iffin you want to reach me..and you know you do....just throw me an e-mail an when I get it, I'll send you my new cell number.
OKAY now an update. Dear husband is still doing well bu tr his meds run almost 400 a month. Hey could be worse.
Daughter has the attitude from hell but she is still the nuttiest kid I know and will still cuddle up with her mom on occasion.
I'm still working and loving my job. Wish I had a damn car though. I'm renting one this week because the last one I was going to buy fell through. Hard to find a $1000 car that has a good transmission and can get at least 20 mpg. I need to have a talk with Dave Ramsey about that "driving a beater" thing.
My husband is still working as well....Is that freaking unbelievable or what! We have both been employed since April!!!
We are catching up slowly but surely on the debt thing. Biggest issue is trying to catch up on the mortgage right now. Other than that we have water, electricity and gas!!!YES!!!!
Oh and another upside since the last time we spoke. My dog's issue is better. I found a dog and kept it in my backyard while trying to find it's owner...well he lives with us now. My dog gets along with him pretty well and they hang outside during the day with no problems! On bad weather days they hang out in the utility room together. It has been a Godsend...uh but the new dog eats like a friggin horse.
Anyhow...I have ideas on keeping this thing current but it will have to be after the holidays. I work like a dog during the holidays but I like it and I get paid.
Damn I'm lucky!
I gotta go the library chases folks like me off around this time.
Drop me a note guys..oh and the little elf that dropped something in my bucket.....I LOVE YOU!!
July 02, 2007
Good Day …Bad Day…geez
I’ve been meaning to write an update but this isn’t it. It’s been a friggin roller coaster ride the past few weeks. We did get back into our home, which means the power is back on. Oh and we also have running water now. WOOHOO. For the last couple of weeks though, I was under the impression that we had no hot water. Why would I think that? Oh I don’t know…could it have been the damn notice on the front door that said they cut my gas off??? So I’ve been taking fairly cold showers and stuff which hasn’t been that bad considering the water that comes out of the tap is warm from the heat of the day. Ah but that doesn’t bother me none..I got power and that means Air conditioning. Oh wait…two days after we got back in the house…the A/C broke down. AAARRRGH! Thank goodness for fans eh?
So okay, power, no a/c. Water…no hot water.
My kitty has been very sick for the last week. Renal failure and seizures. I’ve been giving her IV fluids every day. She was doing a little better but tonight, I went home to give her the fluids and she had a major seizure and died. She was old and it would have happened sooner or later but she was my last kitty that I had before my daughter was born. I’ll miss my sweet Bunny. I was glad I was with her in the end, even though it was hard to watch. I sang to her and stroked her body. After she passed, I went to the kitchen to do something and I turn on the water and I guess I pushed the lever to hot side and HEY!!! We have hot water! It was kinda hard to get excited about it but it was a nice little treat.
Did I mention that my dog has decided he can’t be without us? While we were out of the house for the first two days, he would stay with me while I worked all day then go home and spend the night without us. He did fine and then one day the neighbor calls to tell me my dog is sitting in the front yard. My calm dog JUMPED out the window. This time it was open. I got him situated and the next day he dove through a friggin closed window. So now he is living in a crate. Okay…not living in it…he spends like three hours a day in it but in those three hours, he manages to pull two or three heavy-duty wires loose. This is my sweet little dog that wouldn’t hurt a fly…but for goodness sakes don’t TRAP HIM! Who the hell knew….
On the upside I only have one and a half loan payments to go before I get caught up!
Another upside is that my husband is doing well since the heart attack. Okay there is more but I’m not at home and it is late…oh did I mention I have no internet, because my phone is off for now? Well I didn’t want to end on a down note so…..let’s see….I’m still working! Hey that’s a positive note right????
Okay....your turn…write me a note or else……..
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